It all started with a smile 😊
The day I walked into Ale House and met my now boyfriend was the beginning of my coming out to my family. Did I know it would be? I did not. I didn’t even think I would be in a relationship with him at that moment.
Up until then I was sneaking around with the gay crowd at night clubs, bars, and some small pride events. But I was not out to my parents or many friends outside of that crowd. A few months later I remember posting a picture of a friend and I at a pride event on Instagram that my dad saw. He texted me almost instantaneously 😊 He wasn’t angry, more confused or well not confused. He just wanted to hear me say it I think.
A few weeks later my cousin who I snapped told my nanny that Chaz is moving in with some guy. It was more than that, but that translated to my mom somewhere along the lines of “Chaz is dating some black boy and living with him.” My mama texted me questioning me and I clarified first some misunderstandings, but I also responded with,”Yes. That means I’m gay mom. I love you.”
Surprisingly her and my step dad seemed fine with it. They welcome me more than before(maybe because they knew I was gay). They even welcomed him. Now I’m opening my kissing him in public, walking holding hands, etc. I just don’t care anymore. I don’t look to cause trouble. I just don’t care.
I SAY ALL THIS BECAUSE a few years ago I had a few hookups with a guy whom I really really liked in my hometown of Easley, SC. I felt like we connected each time. His heart was so soft it seemed. I adored him. But after a few times he asked me to hang out in public. He was doing makeup and stuff around that time. I was just simply not ready for it yet. This upset him and made him hate my guts. He thought I was this horrible shitty person. Maybe I was 🤷🏼♂️ It was more on me. I wasn’t that comfortable. He soon took a ton of public torment after that as he went to prom doing his thing. I strongly applaud him for it, but my heart also hurt for him.
But all in all, BE YOURSELF! The world will catch on. There will be people who hurt you because of it. There will be people who accept & love you because of it. There will be people who JUST DON’T CARE. Truth is that will happen to you no matter if you’re gay, white, bi, black, trans, asian, straight, fat, skinny……people will always hurt you, accept you, love you, ignore you. JUST BE YOURSELF.